November 03, 2004
gd morning slut, i dreamt of you last night- a lesson in manhood
i think the most hateful and unforgivable thing a girl can do to a guy is to raise the bar and then leave. it's worse than actual cheating because it constitutes emptiness leading to the inverse amount of disappointment, whereas in cheating it's a conflict of commitments that causes upset.
which is worse, girl thinks of cheating on you but doesn't do it or girl doesn't think of cheating on you but does it?
precisely. it's hard to point out which is worse between a brown tomato or a red potato. they're both wrong, doubtless, but not necessarily one more so than the other. when a girl raises expectations and then fails to meet them, the dejection on your part can easily be translated into her incapacity to live up to your expectations, however misgiving.
was it you who raised expectations? it's her best way of fucking you up at the earliest stage possible, pass-me-by the 'let's just be friends' talk.
whatever her reasons may be, it is your duty as the man to be a man. and to walk away.
no, it was she. so by hanging around more often hoping to increase your chances of getting laid, you're only falling shorter and shorter of the bar.
i dreamt a lot of things last night. i and a couple of friends were at someone's place playing fifa2005. among us we had a perennial loser at video soccer games, not unlike someone in real life, who was the host in my dream, as he often is in real life too.
after that i came across the set of a play on contemporary pirates. there was a huge marquee for some reason, built only of cloth and nails and the builder challenged me to climb it. so i did. i was 20 feet in the air and then someone else started climbing the marquee while i was still on it. i remember almost dying then, but not sure how.
so that was fun, and then i had to go for physics tuition in the middle of a nature reserve. there was a whole group of us so we hired a van. one girl who was in the dream the whole way decided to have plastic surgery on one of our stop-overs, so she came back looking really cute. i made her sit on my lap and we both kinda enjoyed the bumpy ride. once we got down and started to walk we met a talking cobra who attacked my new dream girlfriend who had transformed into some sort of a rodent. i kicked the cobra away but he conveniently decided to molt just then, so i ended up kicking his skin instead. and then he ate my girlfriend. how sad.
halfway to the tuition centre i saw my secondary school pe teacher conducting martial arts classes at some sort of a parade square. so i rushed down to see him. however he mistook me for one of his martial arts students and made me do one-armed push-ups. and then he told me that i was selected for some international competition, so i had to step-up my training. 'cool, so no tuition' i thought to myself.
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