September 01, 2002
i attended church just now, to watch a play. nevermind the title being Lord Of The Strings. but the drama was basically about how people have restraints which are external. brought about by the way they've been brought up, they're living environs and so on and so forth. then after the play, came a man they called Willie. he was a pasteur. he went on about how youths who have yet to accept god into their lives are leading a life with no purpose. they have no direction, they don't know where they're headed, and they don't know what they're doing with their lives. he went on to strike a chord with the other idiotic brainless twats who couldn't see through his ploy to get more ppl to give god a chance, and to let him help them gain a purpose in life. his self-righteous tone went very well with the way he condemned us for Feeling Lonely all the time, how we can't Be Ourselves in front of our 'friends' because if they knew the real 'us', we'd lose them. which i personally thought was a whole load of big bull crap. i mean, seriously if you're going to put down people like that why bother offering them a solution in god? you might as well go the whole way and tell them they're better off dead. your superficial god, why did he make you so ugly? right, cos looks don't matter. it's just your solution for everything else. i'm happy for you if you think looking for god should be your purpose in life and if it keeps you satisfied then i'll respect that and let you be. i'm not going to actively tell you you're wrong, but don't you try telling me i should accept your god just because i, like everyfuckenbody else have problems, u know. we Cry At Night in our rooms and you don't because you have your god. i'd tell you to take your god and stick it up your own if it weren't so sensitive an issue. you want to tell us you're happy that you've found god and share with us how he's helped you then fine, i'll listen. but if you're gonna start putting everybody else to bring yourself and your religion up then i'd think that's pushing it too far. christianity is better than buddhism because christians go to churches to pray and seek help while buddhists go there 'merely to be blessed, so they can have better results or better health'. i lost all respect for you the moment you said that, free willie. you have absolutely no right to think your god is almighty and ipso facto superior to all other icons of worship. i was so happy when at the end of your oration nobody raised their hand to show they've decided to 'give god a chance to give them meaning in life'. cos really, there's nothing so great about you ppl would want to be like you for. you did well though, in your speech. i could see a number of foolish arse-heads actually nodding their arse-heads to some of the stuff you said. so, kudos on that. but you'll never catch me. ever.
and about that thing you said about heaven and hell. i don't believe in either, so i can safely not give a cow-tit about 'burning eternally without actually dying'. you dumbass, when will you ever learn. it doesn't work that way. life after death is what you make it out to be. i think. oh well. either way, god help you.
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